we've been heading through advent, having so much fun. i've been rockin' out to "run run rudolph" with my danging-fool children, making things on the lite brite and out of legos, and just generally having a great time, and then, as i was doing a little Christmas shopping on my day off, my phone buzzed with its typical regularity. except this time it was something else. it was a newsbreak. it was death. it was murder. it was suicide. it was unthinkable, unspeakable, unimaginable evil in a school full of children. it was horror. and it stopped me in my tracks. as i drove home, the same christmas cd that was playing on my way to the store kept spinning out it's sentimental sounds. but it sounded different. when i got home, the same tree was there, with its hundreds of points of light, but it looked different. that was friday, and today is monday. my kids are at school. and it feels different. everything is d...